weddings, babies and homesickness

I'm between a rock and a hard place. And it's not a good feeling.

In the last week I've found out about pregnancies, weddings, missed a wedding of two of my closest friends, and I've missed going to see my brother play football.

And in return, this week I've worked, worked, graded papers, and went to a pukey church activity. In my head, it doesn't seem like a fair trade off.

But the part that makes this all so painful and difficult is that I know that I need to be in Arizona. I don't know why ... but I just know. Whatever purpose I've been sent to the desert for hasn't been fulfilled yet. And I don't even know what that purpose is. But, I suppose I'll know when it's time to leave.

Now, I realize that this post makes it sound like I'm completely and totally miserable. But I'm not. I'm actually really happy. I absolutely love my job. I love where I live. I'm actually starting to love the area (gasp!). So I decided that instead of giving one long, huge, boring post about all of this stuff, my goal is, over the next few days is to give an update every day about some aspect of my life: job, roommate, church, social life, family back at home, etc. (I'm also open to other things you want, or don't want to hear about). I have, as promised, uploaded pictures of the house, but I took them the day we moved in, and now there's furniture, so I'll have to re-take some pictures and post them. I'm also thinking I'll do a bit of a photojournalism "a day in the life of kj" ... perhaps.

Ok, I love you all and miss you all. Come back tomorrow, hopefully there will be more!